Live

You tell me to live

For a moment l am excited,

Until l begin to think,

What does it really mean to live,

I have lived before, I thought to myself

l have smiled

I have gone out with family and friends

I have travelled

I have shopped till l drop

I have done the work l enjoy

I have met lovely people in different settings

I have helped people, visited friends and family

I have had fun and much more

I have done all these because l could.

In my mind that's how l would define living, just doing the ordinary things people do rich or poor.

Having the freedom to choose regardless.

Then one day my life changed,

l couldn’t do all these things When l wanted,

How, l wanted to, Where l wanted to be,

Who l wanted to be around,

My why changed as well.

It became a luxury.

Everything became distant,

You become your own best friend.

You no longer live, but build coping mechanisms.

You cry a lot and become intentional with laughter.

You wake up and make a choice to smile in the midst of challenges.

You learn to function in the midst of chaos

You make a decision to be joyful

You make a decision to forgive quickly

You choose to dismiss insensitive comments and behaviours from people in and outside your world.

Guarding your heart is a priority.

Meditation is food for your brain.

Eating right and exercising are key.

Making time for yourself is necessary.

It’s ok to turn off, shut off any added stress, and stay out of other people’s drama.

I have a dream and I will not let it slip away just yet.

I will do the best l can with the little in my hand

I will trust in the Great I am and l choose to follow what He says ''Live''

I choose to live even though l may not be sure what living looks like.

I live today, l live tomorrow, l live until the time He says come home.

I choose to live.